Today i had a wierd dream..
i dreamt about the one i loved..
attention - "loved" with the "d" at the back

aha..which means it's a past tense..
this dream suddenly makes me think of lots of things..
things/stuffs which we used to do..
this makes me miss "loved"

as my heart's already have a new "love"..
i dont need "loved"
but still..
ive been loving "loved" for about a few years..

emphasize - few years

haizzz..
i shouldnt have dreamt about "loved"
this makes my headache worst..

worst..which means im having a headache..
which goes from light, dense and lastly, worst

help!!~~

SaNsaN. 93

+|..325986E ][ 11:22 PM

hohoho..
CNY is just around the corner..
am excited about it..
but then..
im scared of one thing..

that is "dia"
OMG!!
"Dia" is supposed not to chat with me..
since dia long time didnt chat with me already..
just a few days ago..
dia chat with me..
which makes me even harder to forget dia!!

and worst of all..
im going back to brunei..
and CNY is coming..
we WILL meet!!
and that!
will be a disaster!!

god!! help me please!!
buhuhu..

but then..
i still wishes to see dia..
miss dia much if you want me to tell the truth..
really..
never misses somebody that much..
even last time..
i didnt even miss my 1st that much!!

OMG OMG OMG!!
dont know why..
left side of my face..
got more and more pimple..
buhuh..
maybe no more clear face for CNY..
buhuhu..

haizz..
nvmla..
since last year i walk through CNY with an even worst face!!
ahaha..
i should be happy lo..
ohohohoh..!!

this semester is getting harder and harder..
im going to sew [ both machine and hand ]
which i never tried..
im learning to draw proper body figure.. [HARD!!]
im going to do drama for my malaysian studies.. [hate it!]
im studying history in malaysian studies.. [boring!!]
im going to interview designer which i dont even know.. [Scared!]
im going to cut my precious magazines!! [Sad!!]
im going to do a journal based on fashion history.. [lazy!!]
im going to take pictures.. [Happy!!]

taking pictures may be the best among other course..
as i get to buy new camera..
what brand you may ask?
aha..
casio exilim EX-Z1000..
actually i wanted to buy sony cybershot N2..
but then the shopkeeper said that it's not good..
as it used up lots of battery..
and it's touch screen de..
so the screen is easily to break..
which will make me heartache to see it..
sooooo..i chose casio lo..

i want to take many many picture back in Brunei..
want to show off to my friends here..
ohohoh..
and also i want to take pic of dia..
so i can see him whenever i want lo~~
althought it's not the real person la..
buhuhu..

thank god!!
at least one course is easy..
after this CNY..i ought to used up all of my time for these courses..
need to have a great result just like last semester..
jia you!!!!!!!!!!

SaNsaN. 93

+|..325986E ][ 3:34 PM

It's been a mess since the school started!!
and the lecture i hated most now is..
Chrisilda a.k.a cruella devil~~

I hate her i hate her i hate her!!
she asked us to do a review on this designer
"Bernard Chandran"
[kinda handsome lo..half indian half chinese..skin's fair~~]
He has had an exhibition..
so~~
She asked us to go there..and do a review on it~~

So~~
yesterday i do her stupid review until 2am
sleep at 3am..
and i need to get up at 7.45am

and~~
today she came late..
in which she said that it's us who are late!!
so she added an hour of class..
which usually our class starts at 9.30am until 11am
she came at 10.15am
start preparing all the overhead projector's stuff till 10.45am
then~~
today we end our class at 12pm!!
kimakness~~

and~~ the most important part..
she asked us to change our review!!
she gave us another review!!
such an irresponsible devil~~
hah!! kimakness to the end!!

ahhhhh!!
and and and..
I've decided to do an extention to my hair~~
i plan to extend the back of my hair..
with strands of blue hair..
which makes it like a tail..
a fairly thick sack of tail~~
ahahaha!!

and also extend my front hair and side hair
just like before~~
lol!!
I don't want to celebrate CNY with short hairs..
such an uncool way to walk through my fabulous CNY!!

oh!!
by the way~~
did anyone noticed Freddy's display pic?
ahahaha!!
tell me if you do~~
and give me your opinions oh!!
my opinion?

ahahah!!
of course..as you guys agreed~~
GAY!! plus MORE GAY~~!!
ahahaha!!

don't mind telling him that i said that ok?
go on~~
tell~~
it's my pleasure~~
ahahaha!!

hope that i wont see him in Brunei..
hope he get his arsssh to canada~~
or miri also can~~
just dont be in KB or anywhere else in Brunei..
I may laugh my head out..
and i dont want that to happen..
Im still going to be a famous designer + model!!

Do not say im bad or what-so-ever ok!!
you should see what he did to me during secondary life~~
pfft!!

Everyday i just keep on thinking and thinking of dia~~
i wonder if dia do too~~
ahhhhhh!!
help mua~~!!

I know that dia wont de lo~~
just hope so only nia~~
dont know will this opinion change when im back in Brunei or not lea..
as i will be a whole new me~~
not all la~~
just a few parts of me~~
like the way i dress..
and of course my hair style~~
ahahaha!!
thinking too much of a nonsense~~
shew shewwww!!
get away dreamland!!

my class have got many new students..
I've make friends with them..
ok..i should list them all out~~

Devi, Evie, Stephanie, qiao qiao and a girl [don't know her name yet]
I dont feel like making friends with the boys..
as there only a few..
your fingers can do the job~~
all of them~~
urhhhh!!
don't like the way they talk, walk, laugh, and hand gestures!!
although i may also have some kind of ladies gesture..
but im not as much as them!!!!

I need to confess something here..
I didnt buy anything for you guys~~
as i used up lots of it~~
and my dad almost dry up liao..
I'll try my best ok?

For the lucky ones~~
of course..
just lieslie and lan zhu nia~~
dont angry o for the unluckies~~
sorry sorry!!

am so excited!!
cause im going back!!
Tan Cho Sian is going to go back!!
For his first time "back-from-KL-New-Year"!!

All of you guys!!
must miss me ohhhhh!!
If not..
ehehehe~~
i'll treat you very good when i get back~~
really very the ultimately de good~~
"trust me" if you dare not to miss~~
[staring at you with my eyes showing most of the white part]

ehe..
chao~~ ^(oo)^ zZzZzZ

SaNsaN. 93

+|..325986E ][ 6:27 PM

yesterday has been a very very very busy day for me..
because..
im moving..
moving to a new unit..
which i live with my friends..

whao!!
it's a lot of work!!
it almost killed me!!
ahahahahahaha..
since my useless roommate went back home..
which left me alone..
moving MOST of the things..
in which left SOME things for him to move today..
he's so lucky to have me as his roommate..
but im so bad luck to have him as my rommie..

just feel like killing him!!
as he blarr out one sentence..
dead sentence!!
"OH!! so fast i move my things.. just an hour then finish liao.."

Kimakness!!
of course la!!
i moved MOST of the things..

He's big..but im small..
and i used up my whole day to move..
and he dare to say that!!
so irresponsible!!
kimakness!!

and he still dare to smile..
more hot!!

such a useless people
can go die liao la..
so old..but still cant think maturely..
haizzz..

such a ****..
aha..
actually i also dont know what that word is..
huahuahua..

but..
from all of those moving..
im so happy!!
cause i get to live with my friends..
and i get to choose place to put my bed and stuffs..
hohoho..
so nice my room..

tomorrow..
maybe if i got time..
as tomorrow starts school liao..
i may take some pic of my room..
ohohoho..
dun jealous oh!!
keke..^^

SaNsaN. 93

+|..325986E ][ 12:07 AM

Tomorrow im going to take my timetable..
and the scariest part is that..
" I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK AT 8PM!!"

My friend's timetable shows that..
she starts school 10am..
then study until 8pm..

"OMG!!"
i don't want that thing to happen to me..
please, oh please!!
GoD!! save me!!
Tuhan!! tolong!!
Shen!! jiu jiu wo ba!!
[ Shen ah, jiu jiu wo ba~~ yi ba nian ji le~~
*cannot continue liao..cause i don't know the lyrics
AHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! (Don't laugh!!) ]

Ok.. to update on my CNY preparations..
ahahahaha!! and i did what i said back in Brunei..
I want to have a "Branded" CNY..
ahahahah!!

Here's the list:
Mickey's
Tough's
Three point six's
Tropicana Life's
Radioactive's
Pure Milk's
Pink Panther's

wohoo!!
im so happy!!
after getting back here KL from Brunei..
Im soooooooo me!!
wahahahaha!!

On the 9th of Jan..
I went to try this popular Skin-Care centre
named:
"New York"
Those who watched
"Mei Liao Zhuan Jia" [think so this is the programme's name]
sure know this shop

The 1st time is free..
and i thought of giving it a try..
cause im desperate of having a clear face!!
If successful.. Maybe i will bring a clear face back to Brunei..
and having a clear face to face CNY!!
ahahahahahaha!!
If not, then i'll have to wait..
ahahah!!

I'm very sure of:
I'm going to have a clear face..
Because..!!
I've tried it once..
and it's soooooooooo refreshing..!!
ahahaha..!!
i like it much!!

Here's the procedure:
Firstly, they checked my skin with some sort of scanner..
miniature scanner..ahahaha!!
Then they show me the pictures of my skin..
OMG!! it's so dirty..!!
especially my nose..lots of blackheads..

Then.. They explain to us what they'll do with my face..
giving what treatment to it..
explaining why my face's like this..
[I like the way they asked me things, feel so.. "famous-amos" ahahaha!!]

After some kind of cleaning to the face..
They do the extracting..[Painful]
Then they use some sort of machine that kills germs..[Scary]
They do some masks..[Cool~~ and refreshing]
Then another masks again..but this one is special.. cause it's sooo damn cold!!
They use it to smallen the pores..

That's all..
and this whole procedures take up to 2 hrs or more..
based on your skin conditions..
ahahaha!!

Going back this 24th..
But maybe will change time..
as i got classes to attend to..
haizzz~~ school life..

oh..by the way..
the price you may ask?
ahahahah!!
it's scaring..
RM1,500 for ten rounds of treatments [student price]
and it comes with a free RM1,600's treatment..

On the 13th of January
i went to cut my hair..
i went to snipps.. "closed"

so~~i went to other hair shop
and the one and only one which is open..

at 1st..they ask me how should they cut..
then i say.. as you like.. but not so short
so~~ she showed me this hair book and pointed at a pic to me..
i think it's ok.. as it's not so short..
"But"!!! the outcome..
HAH!! close your eyes before i tell u this..
as short as anythings that's "very.. very.. very short"!!
I've chose the wrong person to cut my hair..
I think that she's jealous of my straight hair..
as she keep on asking me did i do any rebonding [rebonding right?]
or another option..
she likes boy with very very short hair..
I've waited for a long time for her to stop cutting my hair..
Then she suddenly stopped and wash my hair..
then.. i think it has come to an end..
BUT!!
she still keeps on cutting, cutting and non other than, cutting..

My precious long, straight, nice-coloured hair!!
now im left with a
botak, but not botak
bald, but not bald
long, but not long
short, but not short
HAIR!!

hiks.. hikss.. hiksss.. hikssss
hope that my hair grows back before CNY..
not grow back la..
just long enough to make me look good then can already..
ahahah!!

The most important issue of this time's blog is..
Because of i, me, mua, who always keeps on mapling till sun rise..
not enough sleep..
and maybe not enough water..
My face's condition has gone worse to worst!!
bigcry~~
so.. from this day onwards!!
i declare..
Im not stepping into the maple world anymore..
[will step in once in a while..ahahahah!! during weekends? XD]

+|..325986E ][ 9:11 PM

Aloha!!
The 1st thing that pop up in my mind
"For foreigners, welcome to KL.. For Malaysians, welcome home"
Guess where i heard that from?
keke..
and now.. which part am i?
foreigner or malaysian?
beek!! wrong answer!!
Im a Bruneian!! stupid!!
ahahahahahahaha..
hao hao wan o!! o^.^o

I've been thinking much about my future lately..
my love-life, "future".. [aha!!]
For me, maybe love is just a game..
after you get bored with the game you're playing,
you wish to try another new game..
I'm that kind of person..
I think so..
ehe..

For example, I like this person for a very long time already (66)..
and just recently.. especially on the day im back at Brunei..
I saw dia.. and straight away i fell in love..
erm..actually not straight away la..
after "some"days.. tehehe.. ^v^
also can call it "love at first sight" la..
aha..!! o^.^o

Then (66) keep on chatting with me in msn..
I should be very happy right?
but it makes me feel very annoying!!
(66) even ask me out!
[in which (66) will never ask]
whao!! Im really shocked!!
But still, I rejected it..
haizz.. feel so sorry for (66).. :'n':

The person I like now (dia)
Don't know dia like me or not..
Most propably.. "no"
but still, i can sense some "dia suka saya[sikit sikit saja]"
hmm.. maybe my scanner got problem lo [hope not =D]..
scan wrong feeling.. Tuhuhu..
But still.. I wont give up!!
Next month I'll be back in Brunei again..
That time.. I will be a new me [hope so =D]..
Hope that the "new" me can attract dia lo [hope so =D]..
keke.. o^.^o

+|..325986E ][ 1:49 AM

my charms strike again!!
ahahahahahahahahaha..

yesterday i caught another person in my charm net again..
ahahahahahahahahaha..

perasan eh!!
but reali..
we neva tok..
den suddenly..
yesterday while dat person was tokin to my room mate..
dat person suddenly turn his head towards me..
while my room mate was still tokin to dat person..

ahahahahahahaha!!
after our eyes connected..
i went shy!!
i str8 away turn away..
den dat person oso turn back attention to my room mate lo..
after dat i look back at dat person agen..

after dat..
round 11pm..
me and my fwens went to buy some drinks..
on the way back..
we ran into dat person..
den dat person gave me a shy smile..
while his mouth gave out a soft "Hi"
while scratchin his head..

owwwwwwww!!
sooooooo cute!!
ahahahahahahahaha..
den i go.."blank"
afta i came back to my conscious
i str8 away say back hi lo..
but duno dat person got hear me o nt..

wish we can get to noe each other well lo..
haizzz..
ahahahahahaha..

d image still hunting me down..
ahahahahahahaha!!
soooooooo realllllliii damnnnnnnn cute!!

+|..325986E ][ 2:43 PM